Sometimes

Sometimes I want to die. It's 3am. I feel like life is crumbling around me. I'm convinced nobody likes me. Nobody cares. Nobody. I think the suicidal thoughts are coming back. College is so hard. Why did I take on so much? At the same time I feel I am drowning, I feel like I'm not keeping up with everyone else. I need to be a part of more. I need to study more. Honestly though. I don't want to do anything but hurt myself.